Strange things happen everytime I land on DC. It sets off my mania to a point of complete loss of self. I don’t exist anymore, jus my brain ticking like a timebomb waiting to explode. I got so MAD last time I was there, I began to jump from my apartment building windows (four meters high). I jumped so many times, I questioned how my chewing worked(?). I couldn’t get things to get faster and higher which send into violent episodes where I’d smash glass, pound on my mother’s boyfriends and friends and not eat for weeks. I dont have memory of this. But my mother was angry, said I’d thrown a piece of glass at her, said I reminded her of her father. I haven’t been in the US since. So if I do seem scared about going back there, maybe I am.


Being called indifferent and mean and rude and violent by multiple people.


I am more agressive than ever

"turn the dark on" devon aoki by mario sorrenti for the face, october 1997

Grateful because I got all my teeth intact


cocos nucifera

Watched Scarface y Cementerio de Elefantes and bad things came back to mind.


shinya tsukamoto “bullet ballet” 1998

Drinking cherry coke for da first time. Had a good chat with da brother, makin fun of me cuz I was never sober when he wanted to talk. Had a vanilla ice cream cone for da first time since I was eight probably. My teacher’s all happy n our team won da futbol game today. We all cheered n I drank my coke thinkin of how much I’ve fucked up since I turned twelve. It’s ok now. I won’t be a shame anymore.


Thomas Schenk — Alek Wek, 2000
19:58"Society has put up so many boundaries, so many limitations on what’s right and wrong that it’s almost impossible to get a pure thought out. It’s like a little kid, a little boy, looking at colors, and no one told him what colors are good, before somebody tells you you shouldn’t like pink because that’s for girls, or you’d instantly become a gay two-year-old. Why would anyone pick blue over pink? Pink is obviously a better color. Everyone’s born confident, and everything’s taken away from you." — Kanye West  (via moonuncle)

(via drpepper10)


It goes like this: me so prideful that I’d rather swallow my own puke than admit weakness/ my friend getting pissed at my bullshit and leaving me for sumone else/ my brother and me realizing we have da same dealer, which pleases none of us/ my lit teacher tellin me “to not give in to pleasures so abruptly and easily, not everthing should be raw feeling and passion, you should let your emotions be felt too”/ me gigging at that/ da teacher asking “have you ever been comitted or even mature in your life?”/ me giggling @ that too


Rihanna at 2014 CFDA Gala in New York.
18:54"So, transform yourself first…Because you are young and have dreams and want to do something meaningful, that in itself, makes you our future and our hope. Keep expanding your horizon, decolonize your mind, and cross borders." — Yuri Kochiyama  (via whitenes-s)

(Source: larmoyante, via afro-dominicano)