Me and the devil walking side by side again
Strange things happen everytime I land on DC. It sets off my mania to a point of complete loss of self. I don’t exist anymore, jus my brain ticking like a timebomb waiting to explode. I got so MAD last time I was there, I began to jump from my apartment building windows (four meters high). I jumped so many times, I questioned how my chewing worked(?). I couldn’t get things to get faster and higher which send into violent episodes where I’d smash glass, pound on my mother’s boyfriends and friends and not eat for weeks. I dont have memory of this. But my mother was angry, said I’d thrown a piece of glass at her, said I reminded her of her father. I haven’t been in the US since. So if I do seem scared about going back there, maybe I am.
Being called indifferent and mean and rude and violent by multiple people.
I am more agressive than ever
Grateful because I got all my teeth intact
Watched Scarface y Cementerio de Elefantes and bad things came back to mind.